I think I can I think I can

La clinica. Things is good. FEV1 71%, FVC 90 (wow), 25/75 33%. Looks like this l'il engine is back in business.

Synergy tests and MAC results were not back yet. My guess is a no on the MAC (I hope) since PFTs bounced back pretty easily post abx. I hope so. I am in no hurry to be on long term abx. Cepacia was a no. I figured it was, but it was nice to hear anyway. I hope the synergy results show some good options though, since the working antibiotic list seems to diminish with each culture.

AND, I ran for 10 minutes straight this morning. I've been treadmilling every other day for three weeks routinely now. I had this revelation about running. Fear. I was afraid of it for some reason. I'm not sure i can explain the reason but only that I recognized it. I pushed past it. I'll be running a mile in no time - something I have never really been able to do.

I remember in my first yoga class years ago, one of the girls talked about fear. and I was like "Fear? In yoga? whatchu talkin' 'bout, Willis?" but that comment always stuck with me, and I feel like I get it now. So at that moment where I want nothing more than to STOP RUNNING, I keep going. And amazingly, I live through it and get a second wind of sorts. It's pretty cool. This is one of the things I have felt the proudest of, for many reasons: because I hate running though I have tried to do it sooo many times over the years, because it is hard to keep doing something you don't like to do just because it is good for you, because I am seeing the results. I have had the idea of a triathalon in the back of my head for years now and suddenly I can actually imagine accomplishing such a thing.

So a few posts back I started using some writing prompts from a magazine I read called The Sun. I don't think I had an overwhelming response of participants (or any)joinging me in the prompt writing department. That's OK. But, offer is open again if you want to join in. This month's topic is "slowing down." Seems like a no brainer for a CFer, but you can take it where ever it may lead. I'll get around to writing on it in the next day or so.

Peace out, homies.

bring it to me, bring your sweet lovin,' bring it on home to me

I was de-picced yesterday morning. This was the easiet (of the three) round of IVs I have had yet, and I was actually a little hesitant to have it pulled. But yet, that little undying denial bird just wouldn't let me request four more days. I do feel better, that isn't the issue. But the thought of getting sick again soon, of needing IVs in the near future (which would mean thinking about a port because I am NOT into the PICC-line deal) I mean, that was almost - almost - enough for me to say, hey! let's do another four days just for the fun of it! anyway, PICC is gone, shower taken, feeling better.

In fact, I am feeling enough better that I treadmilled Monday and today and actually ran at a decent clip (as much as I could, which isn't much at all) and there was no coughing (and thus no pants-peeing). so sweet. My energy level was almost back to normal.

Here was today:
7 - up, kids up, lunched packed
8 - vest, nebs, treadmill
10 - bagel with daughter
post office, fabric store
12 - lunch and playing and computer
1 - finished 1 out of 3 Roman blinds I am working on for the kitchen
2-5 sewed up a cute little skirt with some fabric I have had for a few months. Turned out great!
5 - cooked dinner, ate
6 - bathed kids, did homework with kids, cleaned kitchen
7 - vest nebs
8 - kids to bed
9 - me time, computer, movie? rum

so...not that anyone needed the run down, but I feel quite productive.

I was going to write about transplant, as that has been muddling through my head a lot lately, but I think that that will take this post in a direction I am no longer in the mood to entertain.

Just joined Netflix. Found a movie on there that I have had on my Amazon wish list for like 7 years. I thought it would never come to the U.S. That's right - FORIEGN FILMS. I love them. The first question my husband asks me when I ask him to watch a movie is, "Does it have subtitles?" But secretly, I think he likes them.

I don't wanna be a player no more

I've been a piss poor poster I'm afraid and I don't have much to say today either.

I'm finally feeling better. My last night of class is tomorrow so no more computer time dedicated to school work (so more time for what? los internetes?) and summer is coming (slowly).

So, I've been a bit MIA. I've been sewing and crocheting again - I go in spurts, I made a few dresses for the baby, a shirt for myself, sand I am crocheting flower brooches (sp) for the mothers on mother's day.

My digital camera broke during Christmas. I think it broke when, after an ice storm and a night of drinking, my husband and I took a spill on the ice - but i can't be sure, though no one admits to dropping it (unles I did it??)so I can't take pictures of any of my creations. Just as well.

Clinic next week. Hope all has maintained. I'm getting my second round of Colistin this week, so hopefully it will work as well as it seemed to in March and I'll see some results on PFTs. Holding steady would be fine with me though - no, to hell with that, after all the pain I went through with sinus surgery, I'd like to see an increase, thankyouverymuch.

If you've read this entire post without yawning, blow yourslef a kiss!